[Mike 5]

It is 6am and I have awoken after a troubled sleep. The project I started here on TOE quest has left me disturbed, moody, and a little depressed.

I find the results inconclusive. Two things set me back greatly. One is that since I joined this forum, I have been criticised. I consider these to be justified, and feel I should give up this quest as I clearly am unable to see straight. I know I am onto something, but I lack the pure qualities of a machine.

Secondly, the most impressive success, oddly, was mistaken.

Thirdly the recurring "gateless" centre in each of these charts, is so technical, I am not sure that I can explain it. I only know statistically this is remarkable, but I feel very frail intellectually.

Here is the reply from one of the power posters, at which point I collapsed, thinking why bother. For my hard work to be mistaken for Astrology, which I have never learnt or used, made me realise whatever I said, my personality and the personality of the reader would sabotage any hope of finding truth.

Mike; Thank you for taking the time to demonstrate your system. I find it satisfying to find out that there has been no basic changes in my chart for over 35 years. I am from the generation of flower children and, like you, I learned to create and read astrological charts. As I said, I am an analytical person; I found the tricks to this type of analogy many years ago. If you study the physiology of human behavior and social science, you will no longer need to go through the rigors of producing charts. You will develop the talent to evaluate individuals within 15 minute of casual conversation or from the material of their writing.

And here is the chart reading I had sent. Feeling some pressure on all this, I started at midnight at completed this around 1h30am. Basically transcribing from the computer screen in front of me. Which is my whole point – this is not me, this is mechanics. Why would I care to develop a casual talent to evaluate anyone? This chart was produced using a date 3 months before birth, apparently producing the 60% accuracy of an astrology reading using only the date of birth? Huh?

In essence, you are here to lead, and to mutate, and judgement is a strong theme in your life. Your leadership is the classical alpha style, a respected authority, hexagram 7 line 4 The General "Leadership whose authority must be absolute and is sanctioned by society in times of crisis" and also line 2 The Democrat. Do you talk a lot? Your conversation might contain these ideas: "I lead" (7 The Alpha) ; "I perfect or practise a technique" (16 Enthusiasm Line 4 The leader (again!) and line 2 The cynic; "I am present" (20 line 6 Wisdom: "The establishment for the benefit of society, values, ideals and their patterns and how they canb be understood and applied"); "I own or possess" (45 The gatherer line 4 Direction "the expression of higher principles on the material plane"); "I may try that" (12 Caution line 2 Purification "The expression of disciplined social caution"; and line 6 Metamorphosis "Faith in and energy applied towards change and the emergence from standstill"); and "I believe" (56 Stimulation Line 6 Caution "Honesty in expression, living by one’s word"). These are all binary themes, you might also tell what you do not (yet) own, what you refuse to believe etc. So do you talk or take action more than most people? Are these themes in your life? This flowing energy cluster is linked to two more attributes: 46 Determination of the Self "Good fortune that may be perceived as the result of serendipity but derives from effort") Line 4 Impact "the ability, once recocgnized, to move rapidly from a position of obscurity to influence"); and "gate" 13 The Listener "Universal ideas and values in an ordered framework which inspires humanistic co-operation") Line 2 Bigotry: "The risk, always present, that fellowship can only exist for a particular type, whether racial, religious, national, or intellectual"). Now to the second cluster which is basically mutation "Energy which fluctuates and initiates, Pulse". With this in your chart, you are a gateway to change, you always like what is new, you are always changing somehow, and people around you tend to either resist and dislike you, or they tend to change too. It is often uncomfortable, even unwelcome, socially. This has several more flavours or "gates": 53 Beginnings, so you are great at starting things but not good at finishing what you start "Development as a structured progression that is both steadfast and enduring". Line 5 Assertion four long paragraphs in the text here, um, at random I’ll pick the shortest: "Where the energy for beginnings attracts the very forces that can abort them" – but there are three alternative texts to explain this binary range from an "often psychic recognition of the intrinsic values of development, that …". There is very likely another "channel" or third complete energy flow in your chart (mutation; leadership; and judgement). Assuming you have that judgement channel, it is "a design of insatiability". Next in this irregular and pulsing mutational cluster is 41 Contraction "the limitation of resources" Line 6 Contagion: "the law that the maximisation of potential not only ends decrease but inveitably such transcendence benefits…" uh? "The father whose success will benefit his children"? Excuse me while I shift to a clearer reference book, the software has gone all impenetrable. Here this is simpler "People who are driven by the incessant urge to experience a new feeling". "This is the gate of fantasy – these people constantly fantasise about having new experiences – an impulse to do something new … a thirst for destiny. A restlessness as though something new is beginning" - but not clear as to what. Finally in this mutation cluster is 54 ambition Line 6 Selectivity… OK so all of that is the coloured areas of your chart supposedly WHO YOU TRULY ARE. Here is the inverse, the white areas, what you have focussed on and sought in your life, leading ultimately to either great wisdom or else pointless suffering: After many years perhaps avoiding conflict and truth, maybe you now know the range of human desires and experiences. You would perhaps have married and sought relationships with passionate or emotional people. Next, if you had to make commitments and keep promises in your career or social life, your heart and digestion may have become damaged - this applies to 70% of people, those with the heart centre in white, and the Human Design solution is extreme - never commit or promise anything, no contracts. etc. Conceptually, this chart is open to ideas from other people, but generally these ideas are inconsistent, leading to anxiety in examinations and tests, and the following styles of thoughts: self-oppression (47.3) Being deaf when opportunity knocks (24.6); The courage to admit the mistakes of the past (24.5) and (4.5) the potential to succeed through the understanding of others. Human Design distinguishes a mental pressure or inspiration that drives conceptual thought, in this chart and 70% of charts leading to "obsession with ideas that do not matter". The chart also shows many years of things going wrong in early life, a withdrawn period in your 40s, and then an individualistic path which if you survive, impresses others. There is a natural shyness too, that gets called out to some "vocation". Well, that is it. In great detail because you have the life experience to judge these details with a fine tooth comb.