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ls workshop) Quest In Reality…26

She composed herself and sat in the chair, apposite Shantnu. Even if it was dark, an occasional glow of meteor in the sky, made her eyes dazzle. Big drops of tears were rolling down her pink cheeks.
Shantnu knew the reason, so he kept quiet and let her lighten her burdens. It was a burden, which one carries alone, sheds alone. At long last, she bent forward by supporting her chin with both hands, her elbows resting on her knees. She spoke listlessly with pains in her voice.
Angelee You promise me one thing. I know you are a giver so you won’t deny me my request.
Shantnu Angelee, you know I cannot do that. Honestly, I can’t do that to any woman except perhaps…
Angelee Why don’t you speak the truth, and that truth is me. Is that correct?
Shantnu Even with you, I can’t do that now.
Angelee But why? Because I am married and the mother of a son or I am soiled, used and hence rejected by the man, I love…?
He cut her short by a resounding slap on her golden cheek. All of a sudden, there was complete silence in the air. Even trees did not stir. After a pause in time, Angelee stirred.
Angelee Bravo, my love. I love you even more. You have just saved my life. When you sent me to my husband’s ministration, I accepted your command, with a heavy heart. Had you not sent me then, I might have jumped in the river and absolved my self of the impending burdens. It dawned on me, I had wasted my years of adolescent was stagnating my middle age too. But when I found the acme of my quest, it was too late. Even otherwise, I felt, I had realized the end aim of my life, what was the purpose of living any more? My vacuum has been fulfilled with gushing torrents of love so why to prolong my agony of separation. Now, you have made me a full woman, who is loved, cared and fully protected by a powerful man, who happens to be a thinker. Be assured I will never leave you. I will follow you to the end of your journey. But I do not want to see you, only knocking at the doors of reality, which is your logical aim, but rather would see you merged in it to become one with it.
Don’t bother about my physical entity. It shall discharge its duties of a faithful wife and a loving mother. But my heart and soul will ever remain with you. I know you love me. I knew even before you did otherwise you would have had me that day I was massaging your body. I knew, it was the vile trick of our madam, but deep down I enjoyed it, loved it.
But now I want you to love her. All the three of us, owe her a lot. She is a good woman and she deserves more than we can provide. Our minor services are nothing as compared to her magnanimous mind and overflowing love that she bears for us all.
Shantnu But she does not need my love. It would be my body that she would demand.
Angelee Then What? Do bodies matter to us anymore? Under the circumstances, I would not have touched my husband’s what to talk of making love with him but at your command, I willingly gave him my body, though the soul it contains belongs to you.
Shantnu But my angel, I still cannot do it. With others it was different. My senses were not in my control. My mind, my conscience were drugged, with the heavy dozes of energy. But now I seem to control my mind and my conscience too is awake. Moreover, as you say. I am not a body anymore. I am something more than that. Though my self is attached to you but my conscience is fully merged in you. I also do know; our meeting of love with love will definitely uplift us and mutually benefit us, in the course of our respective journeys, though their ends may again meet at one point.
Angelee I don’t know about you, but my mind has only one image and one voice and that belongs to you. So whatever happens to me I am always with you.
Shantnu Similar is the condition with me. Besides the reflection of Reality, I have only your image and voice.
Angelee Then what matters, if you give in to her. O.K., if that is your stand, give me your mind and conscience as they belong to me and give your body to her. Does that suit you?
Shantnu Some time I wonder if you are not avenging yourself of Umeshwari through…
Like a lightening she rushed to him and slapped his face with a powerful hand. Again, a ball of voice resounded in the valley, but only four pairs of eyes, peeping out of their windows, appeared to behold that ball though their four ears could not hear it rebound.
Shantnu laughed loudly and mouthfully. He caught her by the waist and kissed her forehead.
Shantnu Now about your previous outburst. But before that a query. You had made me a brother, so why, this sudden change of heart?
Tbc…