little-self

ls workshop) Quest In Reality………-142
She then told him, how he was brought to the hotel, and had physical contact with Devyana and its after effects …
‘The later I know. ‘And he smiled.
‘Then why did you touch me’? She asked shyly.
‘Umeshwari, you are so beautiful I simply could not resist touching you. You know, we both are above body consciousness. You have attained this level due to meditation and self-realization by applying your extra ordinary intelligence. And I have reached this state after going through that sensual experience. As I am in perpetual state of orgasm, I don’t require sexual experience any more.
‘How do you feel about your present state, try to explain it? She implored him.
‘My charming lady, I am feeling thrills, every second of the day. Awake, sleeping or while walking, I am going and going as if shooting the …..every moment. I can not explain it fully but my feelings can convey it to you, if you touch my body. But I warn you, it may not wrap you too like me! Though I would love to hold you in my arms but I am apprehensive about your safety. I suppose, I have fallen in love with you. I hope you will forgive me for my impertinence.’ Being a giant he was feeling small in front of her.
‘I like your frankness but tell me, do you love me or my body’. She coyly asked.
‘What is the difference’? He shot back.
‘By the way, what is your name? I feel embarrassed and impersonal, calling you not by name’. Both were sitting in the lawn. It was a sunny September. Scents of orchard were wafting them from all around. Strangely both were in their barest conditions. She was wearing a see-through gown of satin and the ‘man’ was supporting only a cotton T-shirt and jean pants. Cold mountain forest winds were not producing desired effects upon them. Any body could sense they were immune to cold.
Her servant’s wife Angelee brought them eleven-o-clock tea. Their hut was at far end of the lawns. Her orchard was spaced in five terraces. Her cottage and servant’s hut dotted the third terrace. The location was ideal for her. Even the nearest village, Kasel was two km away. There was an occasional sound of passing vehicles, coming from the road, which was far below her orchard.
Whenever Umeshwari came to her cottage, they lovingly looked after her and comforted her stay, as much as was humanly possible. Day and night, they made themselves available alternatively so that one of them was accessible within Umeshwari’s beckoning.
While sipping tea, the man placed his cup on the cane table and replied to Umeshwari’s query.
‘I have already told you, I have lost my memory. I simply don’t know anything about myself. You may call me by any name, you like’.
‘My master has a good knack for names. He prefers to call his disciple by godly names. So I will call you by the name of Shantnu. Now explain to me your present state of mind. You just had told me that you are unaware of your surroundings. How is that?
‘I feel somehow I am detached from normal life of activity and gone high: That my senses have detached themselves from normal activities and assumed higher state of non-involvement. I feel buoyed up, immersed in supreme pleasure state.
‘You mean you have attained the pleasure-state by activating your senses through that experiment! In other words you are in pleasure state only through your senses. But that is impossible’.
Shantnu Why?
Umeshwari Because, senses are not the only means by which pleasure state is attained. There are other factors, like nature. Now I will revert back to your previous counter-question regarding ‘what is the difference between I and my body. Tell me honestly. Whether you really believe, there is only body, nothing else.
Shantnu The world, that we live in, only contains visible objects. I see only those objects, nothing else.
Umeshwari You see only my body, nothing else?
Shantnu What else is there? You are beautiful woman; any one could fall in love with you.
Umeshwari Anyone could fall in love with me, just seeing my beautiful body? Don’t you think you are equating love with body?
Shantnu It is the body, we fall in love. What else?
Umeshwari Then, in your vocabulary, there are no such words as: mind, religion, conscience, intellect, wisdom and soul.
Shantnu But all these things, if they exist, are in the body.
Umeshwari Tell me, ‘these things exist’ for you or not?
Shantu I have read about them and I am fully aware of their existence. But thousands of tons of useless literature have been written about them. All has been waste of time, paper and ink. We are where we were. Have they contributed any improvement in us? Like waves, we created new thoughts-philosophies; like wave they evaporated. In physical bodies we were, in physical form we are. No change, no improvement.
Tbc…….