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ls workshop) Quest In Reality………-144
Shantnu But how I am going to restore to my normalcy?
Umeshwari That will come in due course when you have understood the functions of the sense organs.
Shantnu I am afraid that when I become normal, I may not lose the newly acquired faculties of my senses. Now I can hear the noise of the termites in those trees. I can also observe the mental state of Gopi and his lovely-wife. I am reading their thoughts about their son, who is studying at Shimla. They are anxious to see him!
Umeshwari Have no fear, you will maintain them, and rather you would cultivate them for the higher purposes.
Shantnu How that shall happen, pray, tell me?
Umeshwari When you rise above them, that is, when you have their understanding, you automatically go to the mental (intellectual) level. Your body does not, then, observes, it is your mind which does the observation. It observes your body and the world around it.
Shantnu But the world is observed through the sense organs.
Umeshwari It becomes secondary. But this will come later; first let us know about your present condition. Now tell me how pleasure comes through senses?
Shantnu As you yourself have said, though I have attained the optimum level of my senses, I am reveling in the pleasure of passions only. Though women have been using me, lately, I derive no pleasure by the sensual act, because I am living in that state already.
Umeshwari You are aware that there are certain areas in human bodies, which when touched, instigate the sensual desire in us. On touching or caressing these sensitive areas, we feel a sensation that creates activity in the muscles of our vital organs, which start contracting, neutralizing, again contracting and then ejaculation and spasm. The same process our bodies go through while engaged in sexual act. Now the question arises, how the other partner helps in the fulfillment of the act? All this could be produced by self-indulgence …!
Shantnu But that is unnatural.
Umeshwari That is what I am deriving at. We are merely wasting our energy and time on unnatural means. We should be natural. Being natural, I mean, normal. Now tell me, when you say, you are in love with me, you really imply by it my body. Why do you want my body, when you are already dozing in spasmtic condition?
Shantnu As I have already said, you are extremely beautiful and anyone would like to touch you.
Umeshwari That shows, you are attracted to my body. It is not the love that attracts you towards me!
Shantnu But body fosters love.
Umeshwari If you see another woman, who is more beautiful than me you will naturally be attracted to her also.
Shantnu May be, may be not.
Umeshwari Come on, don’t dodge.
Shantnu Yes. I would go to her.
Umeshwari Thanks for being honest. It is clear then, it is body that attracts you, not the person who behold that body.
Shantnu Body has no relations. It behaves natural ly.
Umeshwari It must behave natural but what is natural?
Shantnu To love each other, what else?
Umeshwari But that is not natural. Sexual act was meant only for procreation. Even animals indulge in sex for regeneration only. Why human use it for pleasure, when nature meant it for procreation only?
Shantnu If a thing gives us pleasure we must use it.
Umeshwari I have already told you, the pleasure does not come from the other partner, it comes from our own indulgence. Then what is it that we seek from the partner? It is definitely not her/his body we use for pleasure. It is something else.
Shantnu And what is that?
Umeshwari It is our own projections that we seek in others. We seek in others, our projection of pleasure, joy and love. We have pleasure in us--- which we have experienced due to our own self-indulgence or through metal flights---we want it to be reciprocated! If the partner bounces it back, we say, pleasure has been attained. If not, we are disappointed.
Shantnu You mean to say, it is our own pleasure that we seek in others.
Umeshwari Exactly. Now suppose if you are not aroused, would you get any sexual pleasure from your partner.
Shantnu Of course, not.
Umeshwari Then, it is clear, sexual act or mutual company does not itself, give us pleasure. Moreover, you might have heard or read that people hurt each other, use gadgets to derive pleasure. They become more brutal and pervert but the pleasure they seek does not come. Because pleasure is not in bodies! Had it been so, they would derive it from one body and not wander around, hurting, killing innocent people! You also know, suppressed or unfulfilled sexual desires have caused countless wars. They were, all searching for pleasure at wrong places. It was, as always, in them and they were seeking it without. That is why, it would not come to them or what they thought was the pleasure, brought about by perverted means, would not last long. Pleasure is something else; it would not come only through sex.