little-self

ls workshop) Quest In Reality……..-152
Umeshwari But it is the mind that creates them, body is merely a tool.
Shantnu All the three, are directly related to our physical world. So a preliminary knowledge about them is necessary before we take them seriously at their roots. Now about your earlier question as to what I want in life. I want permanent bliss, peace and everlasting joy. When I go to your orchard or for long walks in the surrounding woods, lovely beautiful flowers, cascading waters of river Parvati, hot springs, waterfalls, birds chirping joyously, freely flying in space. All this creates symphony in the atmosphere and I swoon in ecstasy. Though the scenes are there, everlastingly, but my feelings of ecstasy last only for a fraction of time. I want to blend in that everlasting scene. I want to be a permanent part of the beauty that lasts, speaks, smells and vibrates. Without possessing or molesting it, I go in swoon. But when I come here (to you), my priorities change! I want you because I want to create those ecstatic feelings in your company, I want to infuse that beauty in your body and through its medium I want to have those ecstatic feelings. I am in physical form, so I understand only physical world. Nature may also be in physical forms but its affects are different. I want to absorb these differences and feel in you, what I got beholding those scenes! I want elevation through you. My happiness lies in you.
Umeshwari Beautifully said. But I am also an extension of nature.
Shantnu May be. But you are a ‘live’ beauty. I can talk to you. I can hold you. I can love you. With nature I am a mere witness but with you, we both are live participants.
Umeshwari But the concept of love goes on changing. First it expresses itself through physical love, which is, in fact, pleasure state. Then it grows and expresses itself in the qualities of beings (joy-state). Ultimately, physical identity and its qualities absolve and we love for love’s sake.
Shantnu You have given words to my feelings. Yes, that is what I seek in you.
Umeshwari In me or in a woman!
Shantnu Umesh, you know, it is not just any woman a man loves, as it is not every scene that sends a man to ecstatic heights! Somehow, whether it is because of inner chemistry of fullness of a scene, a man enthralls in the company of woman. It is their mutual liking; suddenly a person is beheld who possesses all that a man ever aspired.
Umeshwari If that is your wish let it is fulfilled. She kissed him full on the lips and signaled him to go into the cottage for luncheon.
After taking glass of juice, each went to their respect rooms.
Waiting for her for some time, Shantnu came and stood in front of her room. Doors were closed. He did not hear any voice, as he closed his ears to the doors. Her was about to go out of the cottage but was impulsively drawn to the doors again and opened them against his conscious will. Her room was bare except for a rug. Far in the center of the outer wall, she was sitting in meditation posture, facing the windows. Her long hairs were covering her naked black. Out of their silken darkness, milky patches of gleaming skin were slackening his hold on senses. He covered the distance with long firm steps and sat on his toes just touching her. Her natural body contours mesmerizes him and he shot his hands in front of her body and delicately cupped her …..
Before he could realize the intensity of his passions, his body became tense with sudden chilly sensation and he was literally frozen to the mores.
She turned slowly and saw his condition. It took her some time to come out from her still (ness) state.
Umeshwari You should not have touched me in this state! Passion and meditation are entirely two different conditions of body which emit strong vibrations of hot and cold energy. Both acquire powerful fields of respective energies. Passion charges the body cells and erects a lusty (red) field around the body; meditation stills the cells and emits cool magnetic rays.
Seeing her complete nude, he recovered his senses soon and enveloped her in his vast hold. She melted her chilliness and surrendered to him warmth.
‘You know, if you had not held me last night, I would have jumped in the river’.
Shantnu Why, my love!
Umeshwari Because I love you, my charming man. But my love is pure and pious.
Shantnu Love is always pure and pious.
Tbc….