In Reds Hed!

Valentines day, a romantic and intimate day to share with your loved ones. PFFT!!!
Started off OK. Apart from the fact that Vic didnt get home til quite alot later than usual. I'l let that one blow over though. Didnt really bother me too much. I made sure i looked all pretty for when he came home but he didnt seem to notice that much. We exchanged cards and his said some nice things inside it that he HAD written himself. He then gave me a gift which was perfume that gave me a headache!! The thought was there and i didnt expect him to get me anything else as he had already bought me a necklace on saturday. Gonna take the perfume back i think, smells old fashioned!! Ha, we both bought food which was quite simular! He cooked his though. Was a lush dinner and he tried to do it how i liked it for once! We then sat there and watched shit TV and did nothing. 10'o clock comes and already he's fallen asleep! This upset me because he could of made a bit more of an effort to stay awake atleast a little longer seems though it was valentines day eh! This blew up quite quickly into a bit of a heated discussion. Sorted it out as best as we could, left him to sleep with me still feeling a bit neglected and very confused as to my own feelings. Am i being selfish? I had a think about the way my mind seems to be reverting back to how i was with Rich and cant contemplate why it keeps happening. Why the paranoia and negativity all of a sudden? Is it just what im destined to feel or am i subconsciously sensing that something isnt right? i ended up writing him a letter trying to explain if not to him then to myself what is going on in my head. I seriously dont feel the negativity on purpose and if i knew how to control it then i obviously would. Think its time for a bit of therapy?