Mom with Paranoid/Schizophrenia

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Kitchen counters, sinks, and any shelves about are not made to hold or contain things. They must be clean and clear. One could put a sign that 'this area is to remain clear at all times', but that sign would be a clutter and would also violate it's own rule.

Lately, I opened a door, being the only way in, that had a sign saying 'door must be kept closed at all times'.

[timeparticle]

Throughout my life, I have also noticed some obsessive behavior like double checking my alarm clock, even though I know it is correct.

I have also wondered if any of my mom's psychotic behavior has rubbed off on me, at times. The answer always seems to come back, no. I am fortunate to have my own unique peculiarities.

[racecar]

I've been thinking about this all week. It always seems to be percolating on the back burner.

http://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/cgi/...ll/157/11/1901

Much of my mother's behaviour seems to fit with how you've described your mom. I am still so unsure of what to call it. She's my mom. Sometimes she flips out. More and more it seems as though she is getting worse.

Often she does view (I believe) others as the enemy. Right now she is not talking to me. I just realized that I may have to see her today at a birthday party. I guess I'm pretty anxious about it.

I can't deny her background or mine and the thought niggles at my peace of mind. I've seen people, clearly, as the "enemy" before...while in the zone, blind to it. And that's how I see my mom, blind to it.

I guess I'm asking if some of it is a learned behaviour and less of a chemical imbalance?

The mention of sensitivity to smell got me worried for a second. Sometimes smells are distinctly too strong and unpleasant. The smell is there, like soap, it just offends my nose. We describe it as my "super sniffer".

I've other questions and thoughts...more later.

[Mikal]

Hi Val...thanks ever so much for such an interesting link. Notice in that discussion is the all important statement..."pathologic ego"....the ego being the sheathe of conciousness naturally unfolding from the center outward..the sheathe of consciousness through which we are to understand life. The ego is counterpart with the Libidinal urge...the life force...the ego's developing psychological energy and the ego's purposiveness to form a natural disposition to developing personality...it is pushed out by desire...the outer influence to abort desire causes difficulty engaging with all necessary information outside of us....you and I and everyone else are patterns of information. Events are patterns of information as are all situations we face in life.

Due to the depth of my studies into consciousness it has been easy for me to see that the dilemma of schizophrenia is an egoic/libidinal consequence following a too, tenuous attempt to adapt to life outside the developing psche and consciousness.

Notice the phrases used in this link..."lifetime co-morbidity" and "difficulty in self-regulation affect states that are problematic or internally painful" and "depression is an integral part of the process" and "treating depression (drug intervention) versus aborting a natural healing process."

It is always wise for us to realize that with the experience of life comes the difficulty engaging with difficult, unpleasant, sorrowful and even unhappy information outside of ourselves. The Rose symbolizes many universal ideas but the one most significant here is...."life holds the opportunity to fully bloom however its essence is complicated by the presence of a thorn..." I am sure nature seen that complication as necessary and something to be figured out and worked through, however, we through ignorance just keep unknowingly hurting one another...

Its a great link Val, I will continue reading...smiles..

Mikal

[timeparticle]

Because we were dealing with a disturbing behavior pattern of our mother's, my brother, sister and I needed to learn quickly the difference between psychotic and neurotic behavior. My father just thought it was his fault for her angry, irrational behavior and left. He separated from her, and left us alone with her...

We needed help because our lives and well being depended on it. You may be able to sit your mom down and talk to her about her problems. She may feel safe enough to speak in an open manner about them to you. But, with our mom, there would be very little honest discussion about her P/S throughout her life. He, and other family members eventually helped us.

She had a clear enough time, years ago, to actually write down an extensive story of her life with P/S including some very graphic situations as being a street person full of fears.

Include your family members, the ones you trust, in your worries about your mom. They may be able to help.

[timeparticle]

Someone recently left me a private message concerning worry about their mother and her changing behavior. They never returned my response.


If you would like a good site to go to about this illness, check out:

http://www.outoftheshadow.com/index.html

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